I've noticed that lately (the last couple of months) I've been losing focus. I have been working too hard to drown my anxieties and frustrations, instead of dealing with them like I usually do. ENOUGH!!!!! I am sick of feeling like I have been lately. I am sick of feeling slow, fat, tired, and worthless. I've had E-FUCKING NUFF!!! I started going to work every day last week (something that only about 1% of the guys that I work with do.) I started taking my lunch with me this week, so that I don't go out with the guys to a restraunt, blow money, and eat way too much. ENOUGH!!! I'm back on my workout program, and although it's slow going, I'm gonna get back to where I was a long time ago.....then I'm gonna get better! I am sorry to all of my friends that want me to post......I've also cut down (in a big way) my online time. I don't watch TV, so I figured that this is where I'm blowing to much time, and I am starting to cut it out. ENOUGH!! I love all ya'll. Please understand. I have to do this for me. Take care, and God bless! Riggy