Today was infuriating. First, Leanna and Nikki were "Wanna go to the mall?" and I said I had to go to the library to return my books and get new ones and Nikki interpretted this as wanting to go to the library instead of hang out with them so I straightened that out. I was going to go to the mall with them after I got back from the library. This could only happen if my dad made it home, went to the libarry and back and didn't make them too too long. It didn't happen. We ended up leaving at like... 3:15. I had phoned Leanna before we left and said not to wait for me since I wasn't going to go and make them wait. Before we left I got in a giant spat and started crying. My brother wanted to borrow my Gamecube and I didn't want him to so my dads like "Let him borrow it!" but then I said "You don't like getting your stuff taken do you?!" so he said "It doesn't matter! Both of you take it anyway!" which really made me (Music Change: Gackt - Kizudarake no Rora) mad because I'm not the one who's klepto it's my brother. He always takes my dads money that he has saved up for his trips. It's never me, I've not once taken my dads money. My dads too nice to take money from, I have such a giant guilty consience. So then I went up to my room. I was crying. For some stupid reason. Then mom came up was like "We're going, why are you crying?" So I countered with "This is CRAP. What makes me such a bad kid? You guys always make it out so I'm some horrible kid! To go so low as to steal from my own FATHER. To steal from my DAD." I stopped crying and just got my jacket and went downstairs and gathered my books. We went to the mall in complete silence (hey, I saw Nikki and Leanna come in on the bus. Isn't that a kick in the pants. Pissed me off to. I didn't even know we were going to the mall. Stupid hoebags don't tell me -anything-) Then I went to library and got my books and came back home. All in All. This day turned out pretty damn crappy. Music Change: Gackt - Kono Daremo Inai Heya De What would have made me feel better would have been for my dad to apologize to me. They really do seem to think I'm such a horrible child. It could be worse. I could go out and do drugs or smoke or drink and have sex. I could ask for money to buy drugs and I could sleep around and get them to may for birth control. But do I? No. I ask to go to the library and proudly show them my report cards. I play hockey to get a rush, I don't do drugs, smoke or drink. More then likely you can find me in the library at lunch and I'm always at home, I never do anything. But no, they have to complain about every little thing I do. I stay on the computer too long, read too much and never do my 'chores' (which haven't been mentioned to me BY THE WAY.). And yet, I'm still a bad kid. God, your lives must really be boring mom and dad, if you have to rag on your daughter about the tiniest things.