HAHAH. Okay, who commented about Gackt? Can you just tell me? Please? And for whoever that (cowardly) reviewer is, I still listen to Gackt (drool x94350873) it just seems I write my diary entries whenever I'm not listening to him. Tyler refuses to leave me alone. He's like "Movie? Movie movie movie?! Come over and see a movie Amanda. Please? I saw your mom, she thinks I'm cool, come see a movie." My mom has met Tyler. She likes him, maybe a bit too much. She calls him handsome and wants me to fawn over him. This scares me. I think it would scare anyone. Tyler is 4 times my height. That scares me as well. Anyways. I showered today ("Oh my GOD she showered?!)and attempted to clean up my room. My room was never messy but if things start landing on the floor my mom yells. I also re-did all the songs on my MP3 player. Now I have my Dir songs on there as well. I went and listened to them up in my room and stuff. And started crying. I mean, "Ain't Afraid to Die" sounds like some hard-core rock song title right? HOLY HELL MAN. It's fucking SAD. I CRIED. Although, I admit, it doesn't take alot for me to cry. But man, I don't even understand the WORDS. Actually, thats happened before, with Orenji no Taiyou (Gackt and Hyde) and I told Nikki, but she didn't really care. But then I looked up the lyrics for Orenji no Taiyou and there were mondo-uber-sad as well! AHHH. Okay, here are the lyrics for Dir en Grey's "Ain't Afraid to Die." English is in the brackets. IE: (( and )) Kimi to futari de aruita ano goro no michi wa naku te soredemo zutto aruita, itsuka kimi to aeru no kana ((The way that I used to walk with you is gone But still, I always walked with you, I wonder if I'll ever be able to meet you )) Nadaraka na oka no ue yuruyakani yuki ga furu todokanai to wakattemo kimi no heya ni hitotsu daisuki datta hana wo ima... ((The snow falls gently on a hill Even though I can't reach you, I understand The flower in your room that you loved is now... )) Kyonen saigo no yuki no hi kataku kawashita yakusoku omoidaseba toke dashi tenohira kara koborete ((The day of last years final snow The promises that were hard to exchange When I remember them, they melt, and spill from my hands)) Nadaraka na oka no ue yuruyakani yuki ga furu todokanai to wakattemo kimi no heya ni hitotsu daisuki datta hana wo ima... ((The snow falls gently on a hill Even though I can't reach you, I understand The flower in your room that you loved is now... )) Madobe ni hitori kiride tada yuki wo mitsumeteru kimi wo omoidashi nagara garasu goshi ni kimi wo ukabe saigo no kuchitsuke shite... ((All alone by the window, just staring at the snow While remembering you, seeing you in the glass I give you a final kiss)) Nee waratteyo mou nakanaide koko kara zutto anata wo mite iru wa ((Come on, smile, don't cry anymore From here on, I'll always be watching you)) Nadaraka na oka no ue yuruyakani yuki ga furu todokanai to wakattemo kimi no heya ni hitotsu daisuki datta hana wo ima... ((The snow falls gently on a hill Even though I can't reach you, I understand The flower in your room that you loved is now...)) Akari wa shizuka ni shiroku some yuku machi no naka kimi ga mita saigo no kisetsu iro ((A light that quietly begins to color the inside of the town white You saw the season's final colors)) Namida wo otoshita kenjitsu to wa zankoku dane kimi ga mita saigo no kisetsu iro ((The sound of the tears that fell is cruel isn't it You saw the season's final colors )) Shiki to kimi no iro yagate kierou yuki wa tokete machikado ni hana ga saki kimi ga mita "shikisai wa" sotto tokete yuku ((The four seasons, and your colors, will soon vanish The snow melts, and flowers bloom on the street corner The "colors" that you saw, softly begin to melt )) Kotoshi saigo no yuki no hi ((The day of this years final colors)) (Machikado ni ichirin no hana sora wo miagereba saigo no yuki ni tenohira koborete) (((A single flower on the street corner When I look up into the sky, the final snow melts from my hand)))