so anyway. i want to delete my below entry and makes me feel all mean and pronounced. i wish i wear a guy, girls suffer too much. me and nikki are going to go malling. yay. she's cheering me up today and now i'm in a laughy mood. nikki decided to call me amandali so i called her nikonshi and then she's like: hehe that like nikons hi, and nikons is like nipons so really ur saying nipons hi or hi nipons... yah i'm having fun with the whole thing nyahaha. anyway. i started crying this morning i was just like 'oh my god!' and i just cried. i cry silently, if i start sobbing or making noise you know somethin is wrong. i love leanna and nikki. sometimes i feel like there all i got yaknow? they've been with me through it all. i rememeber when leanna was the little girl who in 4th grade on the baseball diamond (while playing baseball) decided she would never ever swear in her life and then 5 minutes later she said bastard and started cussin. it was hilarious. and i remember when nikki was the kid with the poofy hair and she was quiet and now she's all nikki like and she's really stupid, she'll make you laugh with her stupidity. it's funny. lol. i love you nikki and leanna. i remember when i got drunk and nikki and leanna were there and when the bus dropped m,e off from cherry down we walked back and all i kept saying was 'i'm so sorry you guys, your my best friends i'm so sorry' and i was sobbng but no tears were coming out. and i was really cold and leanna lended me her big jacket and i just love you guys so much! jeesh. anyway. me and nikki are going malling. i only have 10 dollars. i probably like eat or something. anyway.