Ok. Things just make me mad. In my last entry, yes I did say my 'life' isn't a life... because it isn't. But that doesn't mean I want/need one. Leanna thinks that partying is a chance to get a life. I don't. She knows how I feel about getting drunk and having parties and such. It's not my thing, no matter how loud or obnoxious I might be I'm not one for parties. This has all happened because Nikki is having her birthday party in December. I told her way back in October that if she had one I wouldn't be going. Even if there is no alcohol. I don't care. I've had a bad expirience with alcohol which kind of... made me less careless. I had alot of guilt from it and I felt like I had dissapointed my parents majorly with it. Music Change: Malice Mizer - Seraph We're supposed to be getting the money from my Grampa's house by the end of this week. This is good, we won't be welfare (for a time) anymore. I can only hope my parents (who think I am a spoiled child) will get one or two things that I've been wanting. This kind of angers me too. I'm not like Nikki, I don't have a cellphone and can get 100$ shoes or go on 200$ shopping sprees. Even Leanna gets a bit of lee-way with money. I want a job, so I can get money, earn it. My parents won't let me though. It's hard because only 1 parent drives so I'm practically rendered drive-less and it's winter and I would prefer not to walk. I'm not an ungrateful spoiled brat, but my parents think I am. I hate that.