Listening to: Charcoal Filter - Tightrope (Saiyuki ending theme 1)
It seems like a long time since I put in a worthwhile entry because most of the time I’m just rambling on and on about some inane thing.
Well, here we go.
Oops. Music Change: Dir en Grey – Ain’t Afraid To Die.
Okay. It is currently Sunday, April 30th while I am writing this entry. It will not be posted for a few days yet, either on Wednesday or Thursday if I remember. My Internet is down (again.) so I must wait patiently for it to be put back up.
It’s 2:00 pm on the dot.
I am sitting here in my pajamas and my moms’ housecoat because even when it’s almost May, I am cold.
Maybe it reflects who I am? I’ve been showing increasingly animosity towards Randy. Of course, I don’t mean anything that I actually say but he doesn’t seem to get that through his head and every time I blow up at him (online, it’s never in person, I don't think I’d be able to keep myself from laughing.) he thinks I’m actually mad at him. I tell him time and time again I don’t actually mean anything I say and that I’m just joking around but he still seems unsure. So I’ve had to sort of lay off. Which is no fun at all.
This weekend, I had hoped to get together with Lindsey and/or Jess. I have seen neither. Yes, I’ll see Lindsey tomorrow, it’s not like I never see her, but I haven’t seen Jess since last weekend. She got me sick, by the way.
Hopefully, next weekend we’ll be able to do something. But… (Music Change: Dir en Grey – Aoi Tsuki.) She seems to think I’m this monster bitch whenever my friends come around and has stopped me from seeing them. God, I go from having no social life whatsoever, home all the time and my parents were practically shipping me off to when I have friends and go out on weekends and my parents want to keep me home.
I think this might have something to do with aniki, my stupid bastard brother. I wish, and I know this is a horrid thing to say, but I wish they would kick him out. He’s an ungrateful, bitter little man. He’s never home and when he is it’s only to shower or eat our food and leave our lights on. He doesn’t even come home to sleep anymore but when he does come home you can bet your ass he’s asking my parents for money or something like that. Last time he came home he asked my Dad if he could but his car in our garage (my Dad and uncle are building it as I type.) when it comes winter.
Brandon, the reason we’re building a garage is so Dad has a place to put the boat in the winter you hobo.
My mom made me turn off my music because she’s come inside. I feel so deprived of Kyo-san.
Anyways, back to aniki. I don’t know why exactly he ended up like that. But I have a sneaking suspicion it’s because of Melissa, his whore-girlfriend. Actually, we don’t even know if she’s his girlfriend anymore. They break up they’re back together. Over and over.
Anyway, she treated him like dirt. He stayed with her. So now I think that he thinks he can treat anyone like dirt because she did it to him. Like I said, an ungrateful, bitter little man.
Whoo, sudden bout of feeling sick. I think I’m going to go lay down.
//EDIT//
I’m back. I went to sleep after I stopped writing this.
Music Change: FLOW - GO!!!
Have I mentioned how much I absolutely love this song? I could sing it forever and then some.
We are fighting dreamers!
Hahahaha.
I impress myself sometimes. I’ve looked all over google for a picture of these guys. I bet they’re cute.
I need to shower tonight and maybe work a little on my philosophy. Mind you, I’ve done quite a bit of it this weekend. I’m kind of glad that I didn’t do anything. I needed time to myself to a) clear my head and b) think about some things.
It’s not that I’m confused (well I am, but oh well.) but I’ve sort of had some issues.
1. What’s with me Dave? I never see/talk to him and when we do I feel awkward. Are we broken up or not? No one said anything but I think it’s as good as over.
2. What’s with me and Jess? Yes, our conversations are filled with innuendo and flirting (Music Change: Gackt – Another World) but does it mean anything to her? I’ve known her for a while, we’ve been in touch since about October, and throughout that entire time I have seen her like people and then shrug them off. She still does it.
3. I don’t want to be shrugged off.
4. I have some questions to ask her about this whole ‘shrugging off’ thing.
5. If she reads this, talk to me, will ya?
6. I’m worried about our careers project. Yes, we have two more periods to do it but that’s only in class, not in the computer lab. We’re doing a powerpoint presentation. Ie. We need freakin’ computers.
Music change: Gackt – Ares.
7. I am stuck on my philosophy. I have more questions due and a journal along with an essay, on top of that she has handed out another project that we need to do an annotated bibliography on that requires six sites. My internet is down until at least Wednesday, maybe even more and this is due in two weeks.
Music Change: Gackt – Asrun Dream
8. My parents (really just my mom.) annoy me. Lately, I will admit, I’ve been a little wordy in asking for things. I have two school trips coming up, I just got back from New York, it’s becoming summer (therefore my fluctuation of happiness is practically overwhelming) and I am without computer (making that fluctuation just a little smaller as well as making me crabby and bored.). so, I’ve had time to think up new ways to annoy the rents. And in doing so, they annoy the hect out of me.
9. I’m going to get back in Wicca! Yes, the summer has made me think about green and green makes me think Wicca! I sat down and started reading Teen Witch again. It’s… well, I don’t know exactly.
10. I think I’m done.
11. Wait. This is a freakin hella long entry.
12. Yes, I said hella.
13. Whoo thirteen, I think I’ll end it here.
So have you guys missed me? Do entries the size of Robbies’ make up for it? It’s surprising I’ve written so much!
Oh yes, on the topic of writing, I’m getting Krista-chan into slash/yaoi! Isn’t that fun? I’m so proud of myself. Two girls converted and maybe even three. Lindsey says her friend Meagan would be open to ‘that sort of thing’.
Music Change: Gackt – Birdcage
Robbie-kun, I have no idea how you do it. This gets freaking boring after a while.
Oh well, I think I’ll go read some rp’s! maybe, if I’m bored enough tomorrow I’ll come home and write some more.
But don’t count on it!
//EDIT//
I am back.
Music Change: Gackt – Secret Garden
It’s now Tuesday, I didn’t get back on this to write anymore yesterday because I didn’t feel like it.
Oh well.
It’s confirmed. Krista and I are going to rp! Whoo. I shall have a significant(ly) [bad] influence on her!
Yesterday, Jess called me. She wanted to know why the hect I wasn’t online. I told her my internet was down (it is.) and that I would probably be on tomorrow (Wed.) but if not, you can expect me on after that.
Oh yes, I’m sleeping over at her house from Friday until Saturday. I want to go to Wyldstar, they’re having their free comic book day, as well as Age of Aquarius. But I doubt I’ll by something from the latter, considering I am broke all but 15 dollars. Sad, really.
I’m considering asking Krista to borrow some of her Wicca books. I don’t know if she’d let me, but I think she might.
Music Change: Gackt – SekiRay
I think that’s all I really have to say. I have a ton of books to read but instead I’m on the computer doing absolutely nothing.
Whoo!
I’m done. I’ll post this [hopefully] tomorrow and maybe add some on.
//EDIT//
Now it's Thursday.
Music Change: Gackt - Tsuki no Uta
Updates? I have hardly none. I think that my Careers presentation went well. We ended up getting the PPP done at the last minute but we're still awaiting a re-sized poster from Lindsey and I have to hand in my personal response.
Thats sucky. It's supposed to be two pages.
Another update? Me and Dave are finite.
Totally.
I'm kind of relieved to have closure now.
Anyways. Thats all.
2. i am using numbers because i am bored
3. Go you! lol
4. *dances*
5. Can't wait...
6. ..till friday!
7. Linds
-Nikki
Long is when you tie an elastic to your bed, and try and pull it, only to have it snap, and sting your hand.
Then the elastic will be twice as long as it was before, because it won't be doubled over into a circle.
Now that's long.
This however, is more like a long elastic, that was left close to the camp fire, and the tip of it melted, so that it's not quite that long. (cont)
Go winter.
Yay snow.
Huzzah!
You didn't read your comments from your last entry, did you?