i've really wanted to make a new sitD but unfortunetly, the site is messed up. i feel like there's alot of stigma and old feelings attached to this journal, even looking back on a few of the more recent entries. right now i'm most commonly writing in my livejournal. it's pretty much been one of my only outlets. i feel more social lately, but at the same time i feel even more independant and introverted. i don't exactly know what to make of what and i've had some pretty life changing events happen to me in a pretty short period of time. i think slowly i'm changing, i'm evolving into someone i like, i think i'm finally becoming myself. i think i've shed whatever socio-cultural insecurities and would-be prejudice i may have felt before and i've just proverbially said 'fuck it' and am going to be myself anyways. i'm finally looking the way i want. i have crazy coloured hair, and a few piercings i didn't think i would ever have, and more true friends than i can count. i love where i am in life right now, but at the same time hate it. i love that i can just be a teenager and be stupid and have fun. but i'm going to hate having to clean up after it. i know there will come a time when i'll look back and go 'jeeze amanda, i wish you hadda studied on your spare instead of gone off galavanting with meaghan' or some such thing. but then again, i really don't know. oh well.