so basically, ive been wanting to write in this for a long time now. but sitdiary has been being a dick. having that said i suppose i could reflect on what i have wanted to write in her for a long time........ So there is this girl, she makes me really really happy. im not going to lie, its Madison. we've been back together for a while now, for the most part ive been reallyh happy. however she makes me sad sometimes. ... but its like i guet used to it. and put it away and not talk about it. i dont know why i just do. sometimes i just accept the fact that shes right. its odd how the very thing i love can remind me of all my faults and mistakes. like they flash before my eyes when i see her. or that might as well be the case. Her parents dont like me, or let me see her. they wont take her anywhere associated with me, or let me talk to her on the phone. it sucks, because the only time i get to see her is at school, which dont get me wrong is really nice to be able to do. but it seems like i need more than that. when i used to be with her, she made me feel hole, because she was with me. now i only feel half full. and why? i want to run a way and live across the street from her, as creepy as that sounds. sometimes i just dont get how she lets her parents treet her like that. but i guess thats not up to me. she meens the world to me and more. but damn i dont know what to do. it hurts to be put through this rollercoaster. i guess thats all i have to say. maybe more later.