if living out your life means surching for what makes you eternaly happy then i would be completely content with dying. i have what i want. its wonderful. some people waste there lives looking for the kind of security that i have. what else is there to say. you give me everything i could want. your all that makes me happy. n i guess thats not a good thing considering other things should make me happy to. but its not like that for me. without u im just not a happy person.