today i had my poetry slam thing. i did pretty good, im content with my performance. everyone did well. lucie came too. wich was nice, even though we really didnt get to talk. otherwise today was shitty, to match the rest of the week. and not to sound negative but the week ahead doesnt look very promising. im going to arizona with my family for 6 days. missing most of my spring break. wich sucks, but no one gives a shit here so im gonna have t oget over it at some point. i wish i knew what im doing. i feel like im wingin everything. i also wish that i felt good enough about myself to where i didnt need a girl to make me happy. haha and oh how dissapointing so many of them may b.... im pretty tired of stupid ass relationships. seriously, not to sound like a dick, but if its just a shitty sexless dragging on relationship then its not worth my time at this point in my life. im over girls who dont treat me right to. again, i dont want to sound conceted but i have yet to find another person who will treat me as good as i should. and its not like im asking for a lot. just the minimum, but who can do that? i dont know. i just want what im putting out in return. thats it really. someone to match me. its 1120pm now. i have to do a history notebook and my poetry notebook (10 poems, and a representative art piecE) tonight. so maybe i can have a relaxing day in this week. someone help me. someone make it so not every day is exactly the same