if i dont fuck up at one thing its another. i think life is a serious of moving your chess piece across a board, but instead of black and white squares ther different ways u can screw up certain aspects of your daily. like i wish i was an asshole all the time. it would mean that you wouldnt get close to me. cause when i feel loved, i over love and leave you emotionaly in the dust wich really just hurts myself. i think i love you too much and i dont think that you feeel the same way. and it makes me mad to think thats why i left. it wasnt fair to you. i didnt think that i could wear your jacket of problems for you. but now i know for certain that that is what i want. i want you to be happy, and to live a happy life. and for you to get that, i will wear your jacket of problems; i'll hang on to your fears for you. i'll drown in this pond if to keep you afloat. and it doesnt make sence why i feel the way i do. some my say that no ones life is worth throwing your own away. and honestly, thats the logical sane thing to think. but in this world, the greatest gift you can give isnt something you can buy, you have to be born with it. it goes beyond the skind, behind the body and in your mind. its more than heart, its connection beyond matter. its love. its life. you have mine. i cant wrap it up, so you wont be able to know. but if u can believe what that i say, then know that its yours. im yours.