Wow, its been a long time again. Ive changed so much. I dont know how exactly, but i know i have. I stoped doing all the drugs i used to do. finnaly stopping like addiction and withdrawls. So thats nice. Um. I dunno. I guess im kinda torn. I feel like I just lost a race I was winning by default. There was this girl, now there's not. She'll never get over her ex. So I lost hope. Thankfully, I've met some really awsome new people. And one's this one girl, and she's really wonderful. So I'm getting to be happier. Which is nice. Fuck. Smashing Pumpkins - Zero just came on. A song in which i have not herd since I last made one of these entries. Hmmm. ".." -Alyssa She's brilliant. I also found out that I might be a teenager after all. Haha. Before I was in denile, but now it's made me a much happier person. So thats good. Anyways: Read 3 comments