hmm. im sick. which im very upset about. i hate being sick. but then again i suppose very few people like bein sick. so i got this thing. but i dont know what to do. im afraid of getting fucked over in the end. which, more than likely, i deserve. i just dont want to be "another guy".thats the worst feeling ever. cause shes so obviously better than me. she doesnt need me to make her feel good. its kinda scary cause i dont think she likes me very much sometimes. aaaaaaaah. im so confused. fuck i hate being confused. confused and sick. i hate being confused and sick. aaaaaaaah ima fuck up.