k. well. lately ive been able to see shit a lot more clear, finnaly. i decided to get on with my life n figure out what really makes me happy so im not just shooting in the dark. so far ive got that i really like drawing and being creative in anyway, especially with graphics though. i like being outside. im gonna get tan cause i look like a ghost. and im gona try to gain some weight, do some lifting with greg. hes helpin me out, keeping my chin up. i found out that i actually do like some sports, well... participating in some. im looking into cyclecross. im also cutting back on the chronic, its getting to me. the next step is getting my social affairs in order. i just lost a good friend. but looking back i realized maybe that friend was just someone who brought me down. im starting to look at my emotions as an equation, where a series of events concludes to an emotional state. as aposed to just being so frustrated with everything that i cant brake down my problems individually. i started going to therapy again, and i guess im gonna be put on some meds soon. whatever, i gues they make u happier right?