it just seems that no matter what the fuck i do i just fuck it up or something has to go wrong or nothing ever is the way its planned which is ok but somehow i always make people sad and i dont mean to at all i mean this guy is or WAS totally in love with me and i thought he knew that i didnt like him in that way even though he is the nicest person i have ever met and i didnt want to blow him off and be all mean so i was still nice to him and shit then this stupid fuck that i know who always finds a way to start shit ( i hate him right noW) but ya anways...i guess that guy like hates me now..but i shouldnt be that surprised who doesnt hate me im just an unperfect bitch with problems like everyone else so why should i keep whining i should just cover this shit up and no fucking tell anyone anything and lock myself up forever that way i wont be missed or loved and feel the way i always do except i wont have to worry about fucking up anymore well you know what fuck you sorry i cant be perfect to your fucking high espactations i can only do so fucking much im a human bein leave me the fuck alone i hate everything