have you ever been really annoyed with people but only when they arent around? do you think that monet, when he painted his famous waterlillies, or japanese bridge, or haystacks, thought to himself: a)"hmmm these (blank) would be kind of cool as a painting and maybe ill do this technique because it will make them look pretty..." or b) nothing. he just painted. he saw what he loved and painted it. and did it like he knew how. he was original. sometimes i wonder if its really possible to know what your doing when creating art. i think that new art is just a carbon copy of old art. were these old famous artists from the past following their intuition, what they had inside of them...was it something that they had to do...like an instinct? or did they say hey, im good at this. this is pretty. maybe i can make this work if i do this. i dont think this even makes any sense. it all did in my head. hmmph. but hey, i know what im trying to say. ive decided that i want to go to art school after all. drawing makes me feel like im up in the clouds. i want to draw everything, single lined just to show its simplicity. to add watercolour, acrylics...to show the fluidity of life...that everything isnt as it is...just how we see it. last night i never wanted to stop drawing. ever. i cant wait to see mrs. post again. show her how much i have improved. start putting together my portfolio. i went to the chicago institute of art yesterday. i saw monets and serauts and van gohs and cezannes and warhols manets and gaugains and EVERYTHING i love. i was in heaven. i couldnt breathe. wyatt, i hope your jealous.