feeling better but i dont know how long this will last. im trying to fix myself. at first i didnt care, but everything that chris told me about what i was doing to myself kind of...well made me want to change things. i dont know...im trying. for him and alex and becca and me i guess too. so im eating soy nuts which are kind of gross but hey, its food. i love being able to talk to her again. we always understood each other pretty well. im really tired of giving all of my time away going on dates with boys that i dont want to be in a relationship with. I keep on hoping that it will work out somehow, but time has shown that im not a very amorous person. I only meet someone special once every blue moon. its kind of annoying, i want to have a reason to get up every morning and to make myself look good. i guess i do have a reason to get up. 1. art class 2. becca and laura 3. WYATT!!!!!!!!!! im trying to think of something else to write but there really isnt anything. this weekend wont come soon enough. the end.