i seriously cant take it anymore. you were never important to me and nothing ever was. i feel like im here but not at the same time. and you may think its from drugs or something. i wish it was. hell, ive never done drugs in my life. but all i know is that nothing intrests me anymore. i dont want a boyfriend. hell, id be fine without friends. i would just have nothing to live for because i know that if i sat by myself all the time i would go crazy. and maybe i am going crazy because i just dont know what to do. fuck tv fuck art fuck you fuck me. maybe i need a good fuck. but hell...that sounds like bullshit. i dont. i dont want one anyhow. for a long time. dont want that thing inside of me. jeebus, i dont know what to do with myself. .... new haircut? did it ma-self