the fact that "i have to pee" was actually added to the current mood toolbar makes me giggle. bskdisturbed: what is the mattter? theyreXautomatic: i dont knowwwwwwwwwww theyreXautomatic: do you ever get like that bskdisturbed: yeah i am like that right now. i dont even know how to explain this. maybe its just low self esteem but it doesnt even feel like that anymore. i look in the mirror and hate what i see. i exist every day but i dont know why i do things or why im all about what im all about. i dont know why i care about you anymore. i miss the old you. the you that didnt make me feel bad. and its not like you even do it intentionally. sometimes i wonder.... i dont know why i wonder. usually i have a grip on my thoughts and on what i want and what i need and now i dont know and everything is spinning and all i really feel is i dont like where i am, i dont like who i am. when will this stop? when will i be happy again?