(((jesus effing christ when is this going to stop? i dont even give a shit anymore, just leave me alone.))) discovered that i was being a huge hypocrite to becca today. we all have our ways of gratification, things that make us feel better about ourselves but i didnt really register what mine really was until becca pointed it out to me today. im happier with it than without it. so i think ill just shut the fuck up, i dont want to hurt her. the end.