now that its evident that you and i are different in every way shape and form i feel it necessary to defend myself. theyreXautomatic: see i knew you wouldnt understand. agenda suicide 1: your right, i dont. agenda suicide 1: but then again i dont really understand a lot you do. theyreXautomatic: see its funny because your friend brad understands my reasoning perfectly. agenda suicide 1: its because i dont analyze things like that in life. agenda suicide 1: i just do what i want. agenda suicide 1: and dont care about much. agenda suicide 1: just my friends and who i love. theyreXautomatic: good for you then. youre damn lucky. agenda suicide 1: i dont understand why other people cant live like that. agenda suicide 1: it makes life a lot more enjoyable. theyreXautomatic: hmmm well maybe some people just arent as smart as you and cant figure it out. thank you, mark for making me feel like an absolute freak. half of the things i do, i cant even explain. it was so hard for me to explain to you why i felt it necessary to break up with you, and it was such a personal thing. you know the 2 or 3 most personal things about me...feelings that ashame me. that really interrupt my daily thoughts so often. and yet you dont understand. and say it so openly. HOW COULD YOU NOT UNDERSTAND? HOW COULD YOU MAKE ME FEEL LIKE SUCH A LOSER? you probably think i am some overdramatic freak, but there are things that irk me constantly and that are there in my mind every second of the day. they arent fake. theyve followed me since childhood. you said you cared about me. where is the sympathy? where is the caring? you dont know how lucky you are that you arent me.