i wish things wouldnt be so difficult because the way i look at them, they really dont have to be. im tired of confrontation but i think that i need to confront myself about some certain things. i think i need to see a nutritionist because this is way too out of control and i am so lost in this weird world of ups and downs. on the other hand, ive never been this happy with myself well....ever. frankly, im just a little confused at whats going on between me and certain people. all i really know is that tyler rules. he seriously made me feel so much better. hes so good at taking things lightly... nothing really has to be that big of a deal, unless you make it out that way. anyway, i cried but we talked and he made me stop crying and it was ok because he was on his acoustic and it was nice... being friends is nice. but i dont really feel nice right now. i dont feel not nice either. i just feel like im stuck in some weird grey area. not white, or black just in between... the end.