hello, today was very draining day. im so tired. im thinking about saying i changed my mind to mike. i can just say i wont see u very much, we cant talk on the phone and we cant really go anywhere unless there is someone else i know there, and if he doenst like it he can just break up with me and it wudnt be that bad bc its not like i love him or anything. there are people i wish were here. but they're not. so i have to find someone here to know me like they do. i wish someone knew me better here tho. no one really does. not even davy...well maybe her bc she is my best friend but im talking guy wise. travis keeps confusing me. he says that he loves me and he isnt afraid to say it bc we have something special that no one else had and something like that and he is saying that a lot and im not sure if he is kidding around or being actually serious bc i can never tell with him and its making me wonder. does he think he's the only guy ive ever kissed or something....idk. he wants me to go out with mike. maybe so he will have a reason to stay away from me. he was like i dont care how many times you go to the dean's office...i love you anyways. and i thought that was kinda funny bc we talk about what happened last spring like it was nothing ya know and its good too bc we are over it i guess enough to do that. i dont like freshman.