well today fucking sucked. yes, i broke up with mike this morning. i'm sorry but i dont really want him anymore and i'm not going to stay with someone just to make everyone else happy. and fuck josh too i dont give a shit about him either. i did not break up with mike to date josh. ok get that out of your heads. it seems all the people who i thought were my friends...only talked to me becuase of my boyfriend. and today no one would talk to me at lunch except for kady and paul. well fuck you people too. then guys were fascinated by the fact that i'm single now. kyle was all over me at lunch..it's like he sense that i wasnt with mike anymore and came over to harrass me. i got two free cokes out of him though, because i can always get him to give me stuff. then davy's boyfriend was fucking flirting with me...bastard..and then jesse was very interested when i said i broke up with mike. jesus people it's only been six hours. mike went to the hospital today to take more breathing tests...it's really hard. to be without him. it was the weirdest today. it's like i forgot what life was like...not being mike's girlfriend. but i think that i'll get over it. and so will everyone else. and if not, then i dont really care. i think i'll just go back to how i was last year. alone and depressed, waiting for things to get worse. this should be fun. woo, yeah, no more being happy for me. it's been a while...i missed it.