in one of my previous entries, i said something about a guy that i felt like i loved but when i thought about it i just tried to forget it bc i felt like it wudnt work and it wasnt a good idea. that when i thought, i love him, i also thought, no i dont, im crazy. well....this person...this guy who iv known for a little while now and is the only guy i will ever meet like him, its eddie. i dont know why, there's just something about him that i just cant forget about. maybe its just nothing. this happened over the summer but i figured that i was bc i wasnt in school. and i figured that when school started that feeling wud go away...and it did for like a week. but now its back. and it wont go away. and i cant help it and im sorry i have to complicate things all the time. over the summer we got kind of closer, in a way, and then something happened and it all stopped. i think its when he said he wudnt care if i had a bf...bc i said something about guys on here.. and i thought well maybe he doenst like me nemore. and that stuck for a while. but even if he doesnt...i cant help but like him. it almost seems stupid to be saying this. but... i cant help it. there, i said it.