and i dont mean wasted as in drunk wasted... i'm in school doing my journal because my mother decided to restrict me for a month. yeah..a whole month becuase of nothing really. but she's a hypocrite and it's not fair and i cant see mike outside of school for a month as of sunday. i have to go to the doctor next wednesday for birth control..but i'm not sure if they'll give me the pills because i smoke and that increases the risk of heart attacks and blood clots..yeah great huh...maybe it wont really effect me that way. it's not like i smoke a whole lot...not like mike...the only way i smoke a pack in a day is because i share them sometimes... well im mad because this weekend. i cant go anywhere, matt can still come over...but we cant go anywhere either.. she might change her mind by then but i doubt it. it's not like i did anything wrong...she was ok with it at one point..but sometimes she gets upset about it. blah...why cant she be like other parents... anyways..i guess that's it..i'll probably find some way out of the whole month thing..but i think this weekend is ruined for me. yeah sounds like fun right...yeah..sure... bloody fucking cheers.