Omg. What is my problem? god. zac I m ed me and was like "hey baby" "woops" "sry" and then i was "yea.. sure.. im just gonna go bye" and then i signed back on 5 min. later.. and i was like "just curious... who was the "hey baby" supposed to go to?" and then hes like "sry" and signed off.. and then i just totally assumed it was for another girl.. and i went bazork. i signed off.. then came back on.. and zac was on.. so then i totally flipped out on him accusing him of meanting to say it to another girl.. and then he was all like wtf is your problem.. ok.. and then i dunno.. he was just like i forgot we werent going out. and it was a habit of saying it to you. or somethin.. and.. he got really pissed at me.. cuz i totally fliped out on him.. and then he signed off... i guess i was just jealous? that maybe he was already talkin with another girl like that? i dunno.. i just miss him soo much.. i really like him.. but now i think i blew it if there was EVER any chance of us getting back together... i think our chances are at 0% now. :'( god.. i always screw up everything. I wish i were still in Nj.. but i screwed that up to.. if it werent for me.. i'd still be up there. :'(. god i just want everything the way it was before... did you know.. tears taste good... lol..