Things aren't that great right now.. I dunno why... but lately.. I've been having like emotional breakdowns or sumthing.. lol.. like two weeks ago.. I just started crying histerically in front of my mom.. (that was before she found out) then like a couple days ago.. I was crying again in front of her.. and i dunno.. I feel kinda depressed... I dunno why.. I feel like its because I miss New Jersey soo much.. but I dunno if thats the REAL reason.. maybe im just pms ing.. cause i am now just gettin over my period... so maybe thats it... i dunno.. I'm just so lost with everything right now.. I wish i had someone to talk to... but then.. when i do.. I don't know what to talk about... I guess I'm just feeling really sensitive right now.. maybe?.. I just want somebody to hold me.. ya know? lol... I miss zac.. but whats new? lol.. alright.. later.. bye. Nicole.