yesturday I spent pretty much the whole day at Zac's house. :-D.. after 20 min i got there.. me and zac were lying on his bed.. and i started crying. he was all.. omg! dont cry! whats wrong?! and im just lying there in tears. lol.. and then he was asking what was wrong.. and so i was just like.. im just happy to see you.. and i had just missed him soo much.. cuz i was used to seeing him everyday.. and then.. i didnt see him for 2-3 weeks. lol.. i know.. im a dork. then.. i had a really good time.. then towards the end.. i was getting bitchy.. really bitchy.. and.. i was mad at him.. cuz he was playing his socom II game.. and.. to me it seemed like he'd rather have played that then just talk to me.. or i dunno.. do sumthin with me.. instead of just playing a game and yea.. i mean at first it was fine. i didnt care.. but then i dunno.. i guess i just wanted some attention from him cuz i hadnt seem him in so long.. i dont.. prolly sumthin like that.. but.. w/e.. then he said hed stop playing... and he did.. but then.. we were kinda both getting mad at each other at the end.. mostly because i was being a bitch.. and i think hes now mad at me.. cuz he seemed like it when i was talkin to him online. or that sumthin was wrong.. but he said there was nothing wrong.. :( but.. i dunno.. w/e.. nothing i can do about it now.. and then it was time for me to go home.. and then on the way home.. guess what i started to do?... i started to cry again!!! omg.. i was soo... embarrased? or.. sumthin.. i didnt want him to see tho.. cuz i didnt want him to think i was a big baby.. or.. some other name.. but he prolly already does now.. cuz he saw me.. and hes like whats wrong!? and hes just like tell me!! and so finally.. i was just like.. whens the next time im gonna see you? ... and hes like.. oh.. uhh.. next week.. and i said.. no.. cuz ill be in disney.. and hes like oh yea.. but i guess when i get back from disney we can always try and get together.. cuz then i'll have spring break. errgghhh! I've been very emotional lately.. and i have no clue why.. :(.. and im not sure if i like it. :(. today.. i was supposed to go on a yacht in ft. lauderdale.. but a storm blew in and it wasnt good weather to take the yacht out.. so.. we'll just have to go some other time. so instead.. we went conoeing... and we picked my sis and bro up from the airport.. cuz they flew in from jersey. :)... but.. i dunno.. it feels so weird.. it doesnt even feel like they are my bro. and sis. still.. maybe it does with my brother.. but definitely not with my sister.. it feels like she gives me these weird looks now and everything.. but .. i dunno.. maybe im just paranoid.. or maybe i am drifting way from them.. cuz now i only see them like twice a year.. maybe 3 times. its just strange.. I failed my english class.. and not like im failing i can bring it up... i already failed it.. i have an F on my report car.. just wait till my parents see if.. they will flip!! :(.. my life seems to just be stirring in the wrong direction constantly now.. and it really sucks. i hate it. :(.. alright.. i'll talk later.. bye. ♥ Nicole ♥