Alright.. So.. Now I don't think I want a boyfriend.. haha.. I dunno.. I have to be so confusing these days tho.. haha.. Omg.. I was just talking to my friend Nick online... and heres our convo.. : alienbarf: u diddnt fall asleep yet? lol BabyChick5789: nope. alienbarf: im getting golf lessons soon BabyChick5789: Golf? BabyChick5789: Thats cool. BabyChick5789: I've tried to play before.. and.. haha.. I made such a fool of myself! I kept missing the golf ball!! haha. BabyChick5789: thats funn. alienbarf: u turn me on ur hot i just have 2 tell u BabyChick5789: how do i turn you on? BabyChick5789: lol alienbarf: ur just so beautiful BabyChick5789: ughh.. w/e. alienbarf: does this mean were going out BabyChick5789: ? alienbarf: yes were going out BabyChick5789: .... when did i say yea? alienbarf: i love u BabyChick5789: omg. stop. Your scaring me. alienbarf: im high ughh.. I hate those 3 words. Do not say it to me unless you really know me.. and... You mean it.. and.. ughh!!.. I hate those words so much!.. (like coming from a guy) lol.. and ughh! it just annoys me now.. I dunno why. alienbarf: my friend andy is on my s/n BabyChick5789: oh..... alienbarf: ya brb alienbarf signed off at 9:05:03 PM. oh.. So i guess it was his friend? ... But still.. Ughh.. It annoyed me. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! So.. I like Sam and all... But.. I dunno.. I was thinking today.. and hearing my mom and aunt say all this stuff bout this girl.. Who's with this rich guy.. and blah blah blah.. And.. I feel If i go out with him.. thats what people are gonna think with me.. Cuz... I don't have any money in my family.. lol.. we have decent enough to support us.. But not rich or anything close. and Sam.. Is... like RICH... and i mean.. he lives in this REALLY nice neighborhood.. and everything... And.. I just don't feel right.. cuz.. i never was friends with someone who had that much money.. haha.. and.. I mean it kinda scares me away?.. I guess? So.. I dunno.. He asked me out.. and I asked if we could wait a while.. I felt bad.. but.. I dunno.. So I think im just gonna be friends with him for now.. And i guess we'll see what happens.. but like.. Tomorrow he's going away to Penn for a wedding for a week.. then coming back for two days.. then going to be away for 28 days in EUROPE!!!! and it won't behis first time. omg.. I just.. wow.. Thats amazing i think. I've never even been outta our country. haha.. Thats pretty sad I guess? cuz most my friends have been. haha. Soo.. I think im just gonna stay single for a bit. and see what happens.. hmmm.. Ive had band camp this week.. 8-2.. Its been funn so far. we are doing weapons tomorrow.. I think im gonna do sabre. then try outs are next week.. and I dunno.. I cant make up my mind whether rifle or saber... but my mind is leaning towards saber.. lol. then next week... everybody will be there even upper classmen and that will be funner. but then its from 8am-8pm!! haha.. funn funn! and we cant leave the campus for lunch or dinner.. which SUCKS! bleh! BULLSHIT! heh.. OH!! haha.. I decided to be stupid... and got an ice cube stuck it on a counter.. and put a load full of salt on it.. and.. pressed my hand on it for about 3 min.. and now I have this scar thing.. haha.. Its the size of a quarter... LITERALLY!! Oh.. so John I M ed me the other day.. and he was totally being an ass hole.. and hes like.. So how was golfing with Nick.. I know you have like him a while.. and blah blah blah! and im like first of all.. Its not nick.. its sam.. and second of all.. I just met the kid! after we stopped talking! (cuz he reads this journal) .. and ack! and he was totally acting jealous.. and.. Then he just turned into a complete ass.. and Im not gonna let a guy talk to me being an ass.. so of course i was a bitch back!!!.. but.. uhh.. So ughh.. I couldnt help but tell him off at the end.. so then he was just like later. and signed off.. ughhh.. He annoyed the hell outta me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hmm.. anything else? I dunno.. But I'll update later hopefully if so. Later!!!! ¢¾ Nicole