Last night.. I was talking to my friend Zach.. not the zac I like.. but a diff one. and not the zach in my gym class.. heh.. but a diff one.. this is a new one i haven't talked about yet.. heh.. well anyays... i was talking to him.. and he was all like " you seemed depressed.." and im just all how? and then he said i wasnt hyper nicole anymore.. I was just all sad, and quiet nicole. and then hes like if thats the new nicole its still cool.. and im like i dunno.. and then hes like you wanna talk bout it? ... so finally i ended busting out and telling him everything that has been happening. and then he helped me.. and he invited me to go to the south florida fair with him. and some other friends.. so i might go.. then before he asked me to go... hes like.. you really need to cheer up... and then they had the zipper last year he said.. and if they have it this year.. im makin him go on it with me.. heh.. but hes like its scary.. but hes never been on it... so i was just like.. that will cheer me up! :-D and hes like.. alright but then after wards you gotta hold mey hand while i throw up.. im like ok.. then its a deal.. heh.. then he said hes makin me go on ... the... forgot.. but its the thing that spins really fast so you stick to the wall.. and im like ok! cuz we had one at the boardwalk in nj.. and i would go on that.. and flip upside down while you were stuck to the walls!!!! heh.. fun.. then... hmm.. also.. he said he liked the nice slow ferris wheel.. so i said i would go on that with him if he wanted.. then hes like ok! heh. hes cool.. he was being really nice.. and i feel like i can talk to him.. like he really cared bout what was going on.. no one else really seemed to care all that much.. but w/e.. i got all that stuff outta my system.. well not all of it.. but most of it.. and he helped me stop thinking about it so often.. and i really appreciate that. today.. I feel a lot better than what i have been feelin the past few days. so.. its raining today.. all icky out.. heh.. gonna go.. i gotta clean my room now. later.. Nicole.