grr.. Im going to fucking cry!!! :'( I fucking hate this. I wrote a long ass fucking entry. about everything that happened today. and that made it such a fucking messed up day.. but grrr.. that fucking pisses me off.. my entries only dont save when its a fucking huge ass entry like this one was.. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grr.. ok.. im better.. not really.. but ok. well.. really short form of it. getting to point. - today. i was very clumsy. i fell off a chair twice in 5 min. heh. - Gym class: people try to get me to go out with this kid zach. (no not the kid zac i like.) but zach kinda bothers me. and i think he is annoying. and he tries too hard. and i like him nothing more than a friend. and he tripped me today on accident playin basketball.. but ya. he was just a little too close there. ya. thats why i tripped. cuz he was all like up in my business. where he did not need to be. grrr.. i hate that!!.. now i have a bruise on my knee :(.. but oh well.. a kiss will make it feel better.. any volunteers?! :-*.. heh. jp. then. this kid was huggin all on me. like we were goin out or sumtin. and then Zach was just like "god, your all over Nicole!" and yea. i kinda did have a problem with it. cuz he was all up in my business too.. (but he was worse)..cuz were not going out or anything. and the fact that i only see him as a friend and.. yea.. that was a bit disturbing. but ya. grr.. anywayz... -then.. walking to science saw this kid mark in the hall way.. well he saw me and so i guess he decided to walk me to science.. and hes just like.. so who you going out with now? and im like no one. and hes like why not your beautiful.. and im all heh.. yea right! and then yea.. then hes like why dont you ever call me?! and im like dunno.. i dont have your number. and hes like you dont?! and he got out a pen.. and then my classroom was right there.. so im like.. well i g2g.. bye.. heh.. not letting him give me his number. cuz i really didnt want it. cuz i'd never call him anywayz. but ya.. then he was like bye. and kissed me!! i mean ack! i only like him as a friend too! i mean. gosh. what was going on today? everyone was just.. wacked. heh. weird day. i hope it doesnt happen again. cuz that was too strange for me. then to top off things.. -my parents were like yelling at me cuz i had winterguard practice on the days that were free for me to get piano lessons. and grr.. they were all yelling at me. and that wasnt cool.. b.c. i didnt pick the practice dates god. and so now since that piano teacher only has those three openings.. and i cant go to any of 'em cuz i have practice.. i cant get piano lessons at all.. well thats what my mom said. she was just like "well then forget it. you wont tkae piano lessons" .. and grr.. she knows i've wanted to start back up ever since we left jersey.. and grawrrrrrr!!!! (sry jenn took it.. heh) (only this one time tho. promise.. heh.. it just felt like the right word to say).. soo grrr... they were all talking to me like i disappointed them real bad. and arghh! sry. that really pissed me off. oh.. but some good news. - I called Zac.. I kno.. I was origionally gonna wait till he said somethin to me.. but i couldnt wait any longer. heh.. i kno im a dork. god. im such a loser. so.. i called.. and he said hes not mad at me. even tho i ignored him all day.. blah blah blah. heh.. so thats good.. and then we kinda talked.. we were on the phone.. but we werent really talking. because im the one who always has to talk. and i think he should have to talk to.. but he dont think so. or sumthin like that. I just wish he talked more.. cuz now.. he only talks if i ask somethin.. or say somethin first.. basically.. sometimes he says stuff first.. but then if im not sayin anything.. h'll tell me to talk.. but hmm.. i never have anything to talk about. cuz all i have is stupid shit. so.. what are some good conversation topics?.. heh.. yea.. i still say he needs to talk way more! .. cuz then maybe it wouldnt be so boring on the phone. right!? well.. w.e.... im gonna get to bed.. heh.. bye bye.. later!!!!!!!!! -owie. my throat hurts real bad. I think im getting sick. :'( oh well.. bye! Nicole! ack! ha.. i went to reach for my mouse.. and i grabbed my lighted candle.. it felt warm. but it didnt burn. i jumped.. but more at that it shocked me than it hurt. which was strange. hmm.. nvm.. bye. ack. did it again.. heh.. clumbsy me.