hmm.. alright.. I actually feel a bit better now that I've got this outta my system.. Ppl have been reading my private entries without asking. I thought that was pretty dick.. especially since they have been for a while now.. I think someone said like a month now.. but im not quite sure. but yea.. so I went to school and kinda bitched them out.. I made one person cry.. I didnt think they would have cried.. cuz I wasn't all that bad... I could have been ten times meaner.. I didnt call her names or anything I was just telling what I had hear.. but some stuff I had heard ended up not being true. so yea.. I bitched one out who wasnt there.. But i heard from two ppl she was,,, but then I apologized.. and yea.. I dont know what more she wants from me.. but i dont really care right now. I can't really trust anyone anymore.. There may be a few ppl.. I just dont know who they are at the moment. Rheanna has been cool about this... She has seen my point of veiw.. and tried to atleast understand.. so yea.. I appreciate that from her. then.. omg.. This one girl.. wow... she wont even listen to me!!.. she says she is listening.. but then... hours later... she brings up things that are done and explained.. and she just isnt listening.. and shes making things worse only for herself.. I think she is trying to make it worse for herself.. cuz she really isnt hearing out a word I am saying. I think a few ppl think i am a bitch now.. cuz im normally the girl who never yells at ppl.. and who is generally nice to everyone.. but yestruday... mann.. I was soo pised.. I dont think anyone in my life had ever seen me that pissed... So consider yourselves lucky.. lol... erghh.. It felt good getting everything outta my system tho.. wow... everything is really just flowing outta me now.. Maybe I should be more straight up more often... hahh.. erghhh.. This whole thing really pisses me off tho.. and especially one person.. cuz I thought I could trust him... but obviously not! ughh.. things are just getting so screwed up right now.. but.. w/e... Well.. I have to go to practice soon.. In like an hour!! hahh... But thats okayy.. I acutally can't wait for practice.. Im shaking... I cant stop... My cousin called me anorexic.... that was mean... then i was like no!.. and hes like sry.. belhimic... or how ever you spell it. alright.. well.. Im going to go now.. I will write more later.. cuz Im sure I'll have a lot to say after practice.. Im sure a bunch of stuff will go on there.. unless we all just ignore each other.. well.. Ttyl! ¢¾ Nicole! ¢¾