Yesturday was great. I went to zacs house. We cuddled a lot. yay! :-D. We also kissed. and he was just like "it feels good to kiss you again".. hehe. so.. thats a thumbs up.. right? at least i kinda kno he missed me? i guess? i dunno. I like him a lot. i really do. but part of me can't help thinkin that maybe.. hes just using me for the pleasures. like it would make perfect sense. were not going out. but we make out and everything. you know what I mean? I don't think he is. but it would just make PERFECT sense. right? like maybe hes not the person i think i kno? i dunno.. I'm just soo confused right now. I think I've been watching too much tv. and now my imagination is getting carried away. lol. too much Lifetime channel.. Also. too much Tv is making me think theres a ghost in my house. lol.. im being so paranoid right now. i don't know why. like.. my closet door.. will just be open.. when i havent gone in it at all.. and i'll be walking. and in front of me my garage door will open. and i dunno. im just being paranoid.. i guess the breeze from the air in the garage can just blow it open... but then.. my closet doors.. i dunno how they could be opening.. because those are sliding doors.. and there not THAT easy to slide.. ya kno what i mean? and I know my parents haven't gone in there.. b/c if they did they would definitely say something to me. b/c i have ALL of my close just thrown in there.. lol.. well.. a lot of my close. but ya you get the idea.. i tornado hit in there. well.. i had a dream last night. that i still lived in Nj. and everything. ya. for the last 4 days. I've had constant dreams that i've remembered.. and Zacs been in everyone of them! dunno why. but.. w/e. see ya Nicole