ugh.. i was thinking lately bout nj.. and its really upsetting me.. This happened last year too... For christmas, I asked if I could fly up to NJ.. and it was 'too expensive'.. so to take the stress off my mom with the money problems and asking for a big gift like that.. I said forget it.. i don't hafta go up.. and just instead of going up this summer.. I will hold that ticket till next christmas.. :(.. and it even made me upset saying that.. cuz i really dont wanna hafta wait that long.. just to see snow again.. but w/e.. and so.. yea.. that happens... then I walk into my mom's room.. and shes like.. Nik... whatya say?.. We fly ur brother and sister down here for Christmas?... and i mean.. How come its not too expensive to fly cj AND melissa down to florida.. but its too expensive to fly.. JUST ME... to NJ? .. :(.. and its not like we havent seen them in forever.. they were just down in September.. and before that.. August... and so on.. and me.. last time i was in Jersey.. was June.. and before that.. a year earlier - June. once a year! but my bro and sis.... like 3 times a year! maybe even 4!! and I dunno... Maybe im being a bit selfish.. but.. ugh.. I guess it just gets to me.. That I havent seen snow.. in whats gonna be 2 years now this winter.. and i miss all my friends.. and I miss having 'WHITE' Christmas's.. :'(