So... I dunno if im quite over Zac.. keep thinking about him. want to talk to him.. but not sure if hed want me talking to him.. and i dont know.. I guess im just scared to talk to him. Then.. I was startin to like this kid, John.. but.. I dunno.. he just stopped talking to me all of a sudden too! so yea.. this is starting to annoy me. whats up with all these people just stop talking to me all of a sudden? i dunno.. and yea.. he even told me he was liking me.. and all.. but.. obviously doesnt that much if he just stoped talking to me... right?.. I think im gonna be done with guys for a while. just relax.. and stay single.. maybe go out with people.. but no bf. gf. relationships.. not quite sure if im ready for one right now. and i doubt ill be datin anyone for a while.. cuz.. i don't really like anyone. and no one likes me.. lol.. awe. John.. In NJ.. hes so sweet. Im so glad im friends with him. I was talking to him for 3 hours last night. he said were gonna get drunk when I go to Nj! lol.. woo!! party!.. that will be fun.. I havent seen John in.. a lil more than a year now.. and last time i saw him.. wow.. I was such a goody goody.. I was mad at him cuz he drank.. lol.. and he wanted to go out with me.. and i liked him back!! but i wouldnt go out with him... cuz i was a scardy! lol.. but.. yea.. I wouldnt do anything with him cuz were just friends.. and he knows that. ack! this weekend.. Ive been with Tabby basically the whole time!.. I hung out with her friday then spent the night and didnt come home till like 11 last night... heh so heres what we did!!! : Friday Went to Tabby's house. walked to walmart got flip flops! and... then walked back. then straightened our hair.. and went to movies.. we saw Ella Enchanted. before the movie I saw Eden there.. and she was with her bf! omg they look so cute together!!! awe.. it was like a kodak moment the whole time.. they are made for each other. anyways.. in the middle of the movie.. Tabbys friend Joe. (who likes her!) came and joined us.. and he brought a friend. his friend came and sat by me.. but we didnt talk.. tabby was so nervous cuz joe was sitting next to her she wouldnt stop talking.. and the wholoe time im just like.. Tabby!! CALM DOWN!! and then she was blowing bubbles.. and yea.. lol.. it was funny.. then they left.. and we walked around.. and omg!! we walked to a bench by the stage and sat down.. then these two kids come up to us.. and are like dont mind us were gonna do somethin really weird.. and introduced themselves.. and went off and flicked quarters or sumthin.. then the one.. was like may i sit here?.. and me and tabby are like.. sure... and he sat in between us!! and hes like talking to us.. he was 16... I forget his name.. and hes like.. so your single? and im like yea.. and hes like you searching? i say.. No.. and then hes like what bout friends? and im like .... yea.. and i dunno.. it was weird.. and then tabbys dad came and were just like.. oh.. i g2g! bye! he was surprisingly really cute too! lol.. but yea. and then tabby was like.. omg! he was soo hitting on you! he was totally flirting!! but.. w/e.. then we went to tabs house and hung out.. we watched jurassic park.. oh! and then while watching that movie joe and his friend start texting us.. and joes like my friend likes nicole alot.. and im like.. umm.. how could he like me? he doesnt know me... and hes like.. well he thinks shes hot!! .. i was like.. wow.. lol.. Saturday : woke up.. went to skatepark.. watched guys skate.. lol.. and tabbys lil brother. there was this kid carlos there.. he was hott. he was in the pool and he jumped out and over this cone.. and got some mad air.. but then.. when he landed.. i was all wow.. that was good! he landed it.. then all of a sudden! his tip of the board cracked in half!! awe i felt so bad! 1ol.. but that was awesome! lol.. then we walking to abacoa and went to Barnies. and got Vanilla Coffee.. tabby got apple juice with a sugar cookie.. lol. and this random kid comes and sits at the other side of our table.. and then we just started talking.. and then he like invited himself to the movie we were gonna see.. even tho he already saw it.. ?.. but.. yea.. so we went to the movies.. and he was sitting by tabby at first.. and everything was fine.. lol.. and then he was like.. so you guys wanna come over to my house after this? and me.. im thinking.. omg! is this kid phsyco.. i know him for what? 2-3 hours? lol!! and then me and tabby are like.. i dunno maybe.. cuz we didnt wanna be mean.. then he comes and sits by me for the second half of the movie.. and hes all.. so can i get your number after this? and .. im thinking.. NO WAY! but im like.. i dunno.. then the movie is over.. and hes still with us.. and im like i gotta go to the bath room! and.. so me and tabby went back in the movie theater and went to the bath room.. and were like.. im not goin to his house!! hes gonna rape us or sumthin!! lol. so then we went back and decided to walk back to the skatepark.. and hes like i walk you guys.. and then half way there hes like.. well i cant really walk you anymore im getin picked up soon.. so one of you want my number? and gets out his phone.. and im like.. idc it doesnt really matter.. and hes like.. oh... alright... well... then nvm... ill see you around sometime.. and i think he kinda got the hint.. awe! i felt soooo mean!! but like.. yea... i dunno.. i dont give my number out to people ive just met.. well.. maybe 2 years ago i did!! lol.. *NJ-john*.. but not this year!! lol! and awe! i felt soo bad! .... but yea. he was kinda freaky! then so we go back to skatepark.. and this kid Chris and Kevin are there.. and so we huing out with them whole time.. and chris.. i was blowing bubbles in his face.. heh.. and he then hits my bubble bottle and gets me soaked with bubbles!! and then so i throw rest of soap on him!! lol.. it was so funny! then he was in bathroom and me and kevin held the door shut so he couldnt get out.. then we let him out.. then i went in bathroom cuz i had bubbles all down my neck! and... then... i was locked in bathroom. :'(!! oh.. then chris was coming at me with his skateboard.. and i thought hed stop.. and i wasnt moving.. so he got real close.. so i steped on his board.. and there we went.. riding along on his board together!! lol... it was soo funny! then i like flew off. heh.. then tabby after wards said i was soo flirting!! and im like.. no!.. and shes like yea!!! you guys soo were! .. heh.. but.. oh well.. im allowed to flirt now.. im not taken... i guess. then her dad came and picked us up.. and we went back to his house.. then we went out to eat at the Crab House. mmMMmm.. the snow crab there was soo good!! then i came home. lol.. so thats pretty much my weekend.. but.. ack! me and Tabby gotta hang out more often. we get hit on so much! lol.. so yea.. that was interesting!~ oh.. then today.. I went to my granfathers house for dinner. thats it.. im done. bye! ♥ Nicole ♥