... today... this kid Mark.. was walking with me.. and he was just like your my baby!... and like all huggin me.. and im like.. uhh.. i guess?.. and hes like fine! psh.. w/e.. actin all mad at me.. lol.. and then i dunno.. i was like umm ok?.. lol.. and then we were walkin over to the cafeteria and hes like did my sister tell you? and im like what? and hes like that i like you.. oh shit i just said it.. and i was like what? b.c. i thought he said who i liked.. and then he repeated it.. and i was like.. oh.. no.. she didnt.. and yea.. it was strange. i only like him as a friend tho.. thats why its strange.. i guess? grr.. i really wanna go to Nj now.. everything here is just getting worse and worse. lol.. i just wanna forget everything. i dunno why.. it doesnt seem that bad.. but it feels like its gonna get a whole lot worse.. you kno my dream?.. well i have a dreamers dictionary.. haha i know.. so lame of me.. and i looked up crying in a dream.. and it means "sorrowful times ahead.. but will soon turn into joy" and yea.. sorrow has already come. now i just hope the joy will come now. b.c. right now it feels like this christmas is gonna suck real bad. especially since its gona be the first christmas that i actually remember away from jersey.. and the first christmas without my sis and bro. and i miss them soo much. god.. i complain alot dont i? i gotta stop. grr.. im sry.. for all those who read this. lol.. it must be aggrivating.. prob. shoutin at the computer screen sayin "get over it!" haha. well.. i guess ill try and make the best of this christmas? dont know how.. but i guess ill try.. right?! .. well.. i better go start tryin.. see ya.