going to NJ... June 19th - July 10th... I dunno if I really wanna go.. I do.. cuz i miss everyone soo much.. But.. I'm scared to go. I dunno why. I feel everyone has changed so much.. that i dunno if it'll be the same when i go up there. I know it wont be the same because its been a year now. but i keep thinking.. that it will be the same. that i'll go there and it'll be like old times.. but i kno it wont. i just want it to be. Everyone has changed so much.. I looked at some pictures of people up there.. and they've changed so much.. that i've hardly recognized them. Its.. just... I dunno.. its hard to explain. Awe.. John in Nj.. he was sick yesturday.. :(.. hope he feels better. I havent really talked to him in the past few days.. cuz he hasnt felt good. :'(. lol. I talked to Jenny today! :-D. that was a first.. since.. a while. it was nice to talk to her. see what was up.. she doesnt have braces anymore.. just found that out when i saw a picture of her. shes changed so much. her hair is much longer.. and yea.. I'm failing math. cuz I havent been doing homework. I don't know why.. but I havent seemed to care lately bout my grades. and thats really bad. but i dunno.. I wanna care.. and pull it up.. but.. i dunno.. i just.. don't.. lol.. i guess im too lazy.. i guess everything just feels like its all going to shit these days. but then other days.. things are great.. I think its just my house.. I hate being here. I'd rather stay at school all day then come home. I have to finish my drug and alcohol course online.. in order for me to go and get my permit. I gotta finish it tomorrow. or at least by the end of this week. alright.. well.. i dunno what else to write... oh.. My birthday.. it went ok. not the best day in school.. i was upset basically the whole morning. i just had to get away from everyone.. so i went and sat in the hall.. lol. funn funn. then i got home.. and tabby came over.. then went to abacoa.. and things were good there.. met some guys.. lol.. and Veronica was like.. omg nicole.. u look like a slut!.. and one of the guys were like.. I don't think she looks like a slut.. I think she looks pretty.. lol.. it was great. and then he said that veronica seemed mean. lol!!!.. i found out hes in both of my lunches.. and his name is Daniel.. I saw him today in my lunch.. but i didnt say anything to him. then my Aunt, uncle, and two cousins came down saturday.. and then today they went to disney till friday.. then.. on saturday.. I have a wedding to attend.. and I get my nails done. :-D... hopefully i can keep them done.. cuz i havent had my nails done since 7th grade!!!! and i miss them. lol. and for the wedding.. i'll get to see some family that i havent seen in a few years.. which will be good. I think. OMG.. kids are soo freakin immature these days.. some freakin assholes keep stealing our mail.. and the stole our mail the other day.. and teared all of our letters in half.. and some guy found it on his front yard.. I mean.. come on.. grow up.. and then.. guess what?.. a birthday card from my grand mother was ripped up too.. with a check in it.. so the check got ripped.. i mean.. its fixable.. but i mean come on.. grow up.. that really pisses me off.. and then all bills got ripped also.. and errgghhh.. these kids.. My parents are going to get a lock for our mail box now.. and leave a slit in the top for the mail man to drop mail in.. but i dunno bout how the mail man will collect out mail.. but i guess they'll figure it out.. so.. I went to beach on sunday.. and I got some color. :-D.. alright.. bye.. im gonna try and add some pictures.. cuz me and tabby went a lil crazy with my camera friday (my b-day) lol. alright.. can't figure out how to add pictures in the entry.. so i just added a header.. heh.. its an okay pic. i cant seem to get a diff pic up there xept that one.. so it'll hafta due for now.