yea so i fucking hate sundays. i get yelled at because im not talented enough to get outta bed before noon but hell no one i know does that.. and then i have 2 1/2 hours to shower and eat then go to 3 hours of hell. binghamton youth orchestra symphony.. such a high class thing.. but not very nice to people like me.. this is gonna sound mean but if you;re not from vestal or chinese or you're not cool. well that;s a lil exagerated but not much..er well one of them was actually nice to me today. the pretty blonde cheerleader from ue talked with me. she's really nice. :) idk i just never really fit in there... it's my thing, my music and i feel so outta place there.. it's not fredonia when i know everybody for one week and i love them with all my heart and would do anything for them... i should have friends in the shit i do... it's really the only thing i do... brittnie loves the people she dances with .. why can;t i even have any decent feelings for the people i play with? idk maybe im just a bitch.. i've heard that enough.. but paul never got along with them either at byso... maybe i just push everyone away... o what a lil asshole phidl just tried to sell me e for $20 a pill.... that kid never talks to me unless he needs to sell something... ughh i need some ass too.. neeeeeed very bad... maybe i should hang out with that luke kid.. oh nvm daley just imed me and he likes her.. fuck why is it always me and her going for the same ones? w/e luke has friends with needs this we know for a fact... goodbye cruel world im leaving you today...goodbye.. goodbye.. goodbye......