so i've decided what i'm going to be in life... i'm gonna be gemma ward.. if i lost a little weight i prolly really could be... Name: Gemma Ward Nationality: Australian Hair colour: Blonde Eye colour: Green Date of Birth: 1987 Place of Birth: Perth - Australia Height: 5'9" Measurements: (US) 32-24-35 Shoe size: (US) 9 i'm 34-25-37.. almost there right? ugh but to be this skinny is pretty disgusting anyway.. but this is her.. and i shall be her one day..but then i would be blonde; that would be weird.. =) ugh anyway... we went to visit bobby yesterday.. he;s in syracuse.. the hospital there.. i like crazy people.. they are all very nice... and some of them can sing... they all smile alot too... even bobby.. so many drugs.. it wasn't him... he called me stupid.. but i think he wa happy we were there.. =). idk.. it still hurts. i don;t know that it ever won't.. but thats life. imax of my mind... so confused...being pulled in so many directions, that i don;t know which way is up anymore, tho i will try to find the surface... are you trying to help me swim, or are you going to pull me under? you can float here with me but i can't guarentee we won;t drown.. we live in the void. there is no truth in the void. when i seek the truth does that mean i must leave everything i know behind? maybe were destined to leave the void.. but how? it seems neverending.. mankind has polluted it all... the void can only hold truth when it is pure. the void will never be pure as long as we're here.... can there be another?