first day back.. seems like i was never gone.. readjusted as i forgot that it was the first day back. felt more like the 3rd or something. idk bob talks to me now. it;s weird. before he'd turn the other way when he saw me in the hall, and now that the musical is coming up (auditions are this or next week) he's been super nice. teachers are just as bad as students. he;ll use me for the play and never talk to me again. how quaint. jessy and myself walked today. got chinese food. picked the meat out of the wontons and commented on how closely they resembled a fetus of a cat and remenissed about when nick and i had the same hair cut. ::sigh:: feel addiction take control i know no other way reality is just fantasy again if i could penetrate you soul i'd help you find a way to make fantasy reality again it;s the new year. same as the old year. looking for something new. something that makes this year different. whenever i find those things tho.. it usually harms my body. 2003 - dxm; 2004 - drinking/sex; 2005 - ? i just don;t know yet. those things carry over too.. just between the lines i guess. the lines between the years blur and run like warm tears down the face of time. that's poetic. that;s pathetic. not that is went to the tune of rent anyway. :sigh: will you be my something new?