so i am now going to stalk wook.. it should be fun. me and dave are going to wear teeshirts of her and her band.. yay.. the smoke detector keeps beeping.. like every 5 minutes. but i don;t know how to change the batteries plus im too short and standing on chairs is not something i like to do, so i shall endure this horrid beep a lil longer... pmsing.. fun fun fun.. i don;t bleed on christmas tho.. so i am happy... a lot of people wanna hang out today.. they called yesterday to make plans but i have the feeling that today will be spent sitting on my ass. oh goody gumdrops. anyhoo.. merry xmas eve.. im really excited about christmas this year.. im not sick.. for a change.. theres; nothing i really wanted for xmas and im not really happy to see family this year.. watch them get wasted like every year and making all the drinks.. im not into it anymore.. idk.. im eating brie and bagette again.. i used to live off of it back when i was fatter.. wrong word.. when i was near a normal weight.. maybe if i live off this stuff again, i can gain back those needed pounds... super skinny is beautiful actaully it;s disgusting.. ribs should not be shown to this extent.. no clothes "fit".. quite depressing... everyone wants to have such a perfect body.. thin, tan, and big breasted... im tooo skinny, super white and my tits seem to be shrinking with me waistline.. argh... i need to gain like 10 or 20 pounds that's what i want for christmas... to be healthy.. something i never am. even gep says that he;s more worried about my eating, weight and exercise than substance use. idk. beep... ... beep ... stupid smoke alarm.