play today. i'm in such a weird mood now. we did so well, but i'm quite on the saddened side. i love the plays too much. i hate them. i like being in charge. i like the pressure. i like to be reliable. the plays give me that, even though i am not always as reliable as i should be. arghh it shall pass. and then there is my boyfriend. he's clingy. he's romantic. he's in love with me. and these things make me hate him. he wants to do things for me, go out to dinner. i want to stay home in grungy clothes and just hang out, watch a movie or something. and when i say watch a movie i mean it. sex is not where things begin and end. the world does not revolve around me getting laid. if i want us to sleep together, you can bet your ass that i will sleep. something i need to do. i don;t want to be a princess, i don;t want to be the only girl you've felt this way about. i guess, i'm not really looking for a relationship, i'm looking for a true friend. to confide in. (woah, emma wants to talk to people about whats inside.) i'm happy being single and not even looking for a boyfriend. don;t assume just beacuse someone is single that they are dying inside to have a boyfriend. people always seem to thin oh she;s single. i bet she'd want to get someone. i should hit on her and make her want to rip my eyes out. my world does not depend on my having a significant other at all times. breathe. must remember to take time to breathe.