now i know why they call it mono... when it;s with you, you're always all alone.. i think it's back. i left school today to come home and pass out for 4 hours... and once again i can't eat... great.. even more reason for gep to think im anorexic... i think dex did this to me.. b/c i had no immune system and it worked on that.. that's why i like died on mike maybe? who knows... all that's certain is i feel like fucking shit... alger didn't reccomend me for honors next year.. not a big surprise but guidance told me today so that didn;t add to my excitement of life.. i need to eat.. but i know i'll puke.. and it;s gonna turn into my parents threatening to take me to the hospital to have like iv;s in my arms or eat.. that;s how bad it gets... and im not looking forward to it... i've been up for 1/2 a fucking hour after a 4 hour nap and im ready to go die again.. so goodbye cruel world, im leaving you today... brenda... where are you?