woah. i love thanksgiving because i love to eat but today.. i feel so gross. this afternoon i ate with my family as i do every year. but.. so many people couldn;t eat how we did. i called my aunt mimi to wich her a happy thanksgiving.. her thanksgiving meal tonight? toaster scrambles. she wished that she lived closer to us, and that we saw her more. she's so alone. it killed me inside. all i wanted to do for the rest of the day was see her smile and sit with us.. funny thing is.that she's never even met me in person, and my day still relied on her happiness. and she;s not the only one who does this. everywhere people have a horrible thanksgiving. i just want to help them. give them one good meal out of the year, even if they can;t always eat everyday, i want them to be happy at least once, i hate suffering. why is buddha so correct? i would feel soo much better is i had given away everything today and just had a regular meal with my family.. damnit. i just wanna help them soo much. im a stupid girl. naive in that i think i can save everyone. i can't. and it kills my heart to know this.