yea. been talking to the jack brothers. i heart them. i envy them even more. jealousy.. a trait from the heart, no? gonna go kinda emo on you for a second, but hey you don't mind. did u ever realize how alone we actually are? everyone around you will die. u will die. the things around you are no more than that: objects to take up space. make me feel secure. maybe even convince me i'm at peace. i lose the childhood friends. (lets pretend i had some) i'll lose the friends i have now. i'll make and leave behind friends in college. all in all, it will be me, that sad old lady with long white hair at the nursing home. young people will try to talk to me, and i willl only cry for them... i will have nothing to live for... nothing to leave... no children. i hate children. maybe b/c they never really liked me? anyway. i'll leave you. no matter how close we are, i will abandon you. i don;t really see a choice tho. hmph that was depressing. funny. when u lose something u never had, it's still hurts the same amount as if u've had it your whole life. maybe even more. allein