i know you have all been urgently awaiting the next post of the life or emma... but i kinda forgot i had this thing.. ooops. anyways... well since my last time on here bobby and i split... but nothing has really changed.. we actually talk more now.. i don't pretend to understand it. rocky - saturday 7:30 $5 Lecture Hall 8, BU "Of course the people don't want war. But after all, it's the leaders of the country who determine the policy, and it's always a simple matter to drag the people along whether it's a democracy, a fascist dictatorship, or a parliament, or a communist dictatorship. Voice or no voice, the people can always be brought to the bidding of the leaders. That is easy. All you have to do is tell them they are being attacked, and denounce the pacifists for lack of patriotism, and exposing the country to greater danger. It works the same in any country." i like this quote... can anyone of you guess where it is from? most people probably assumed it was some democrat, bush-hater, liberal, left wing asshole.. right?? It connects all to well to our current situation with Mr. Bush and the war on terrorism. Too bad it's from Hermann Goering. What? you don't who he is? eh . he was a Nazi SS Officer... ironic huh?? =) bush = hitler... awww how cute... i don't think dubbah would look as good with that mustauche tho. hmm rant about dave.... fetishes dave likes goats. i think i like hands. mmm hands.. oh yes rant about dave... me and dave are best friends!! this makes daley mad.. just like old times.. daley hating me for some random reason about guys... =) oh the good old days.. dave likes cupcakes.. and goats... and is starting to like cats... but he might not wear pink leather pants to the dance! not cool dave, not cool. we would all be very diappointed if he didn't wear them.. =( he should meet randy and j00bag, they like to wear my/girls clothes.. hmm maybe that could get dave into pants that would make him look like britney spears.. but he is better.. he doens't have fake tits like her. =) anyhoo.. now that dave is my best friend.. i have to find a new name for jay.. b/c he has been my best friend since forever... i heart jay.. cody may say that she will marry him and that he is hers, but no. so0o0o0 not true.. jay is mine! and i will marry him, not cody!!! =) he returns in 2 weeks!!! wicked excited!!!! - - - - - it's starting again.. s.a.d. seasonal affective disorder. they say i don;t have it.. then again they are hardly ever around me. rachel agrees with me that i change in the winter.. as does stephanie... we were talking about it the other day.. i become cold.. uncaring.. i would say things that showed that all love and emotion inside me had died... they were afraid of me.. of what i said.. made people cry... i didn't notice most of the time.. it was just me. i distrust everyone, especially myself. it makes you so alone when you don't let anyone in.. and when you don't let yourself in on your own emotions you turn into what i was last year. i cant really describe it as i didn't notice how bad it was.. you'd have to ask them.. if only the snow wouldn't come and my tears wouldn't freeze. i hate the cold. It chills my soul.