so yea. it's been awhile . anyway, i don;t know waht to do anymore. i don't know if i want to be with bobby anymore. things have changed. i think i still want to be with him but how do i really know? and don't say "well,do you love him? " love is as real as the unicorn sticking it's horn up my as ass rightn now. "love" is a degree of caring. evrything is. "hatred" is a very low/negative degree, while "love" is a very high one. "loving" someone is a deep care for them, an attraction, a lie. i "hate" people obsessed with love. i also "hate" people obsessed with anal unicorns. but then again anal unicorns are the same damn thing as "love" so w/e. yea that was a rant. it's not complete yet b/c im still pissed and that one didn't get everything out, but for now w/e. rocky horror auditions were this past fri. they went okie. w/e. i'm really starting to not care about anyone. dhskjaghjkfghaks. aunt judy is still in the hospital. turns out she had chemo, then it fucked up her blood cells, so she needed a blood transfusion, which made her so weak it almost killed her. so what are they going to do when she has fully recovered from her weakness? put her back on chemo so we can go thru the same damn thing again!!!!! what the fuck?!? anyway. anyone wanna buy a bowl?