and they wonder why im so paranoid. wonder why i cant just go with the flow. well when everything around me points to familiar bad news and youre the only one telling me its gonna be okay how can i ever calm down??????? and im starting to feel like a slut. i never wanted to be anybodys whore and im gonna feel really fucking stupid if when things finally get out in the open and i see that thats all i ever really was. i thought i was smarter now and i didnt think that id let myself get mixed up in another game. but now i dont know where the fuck i am because nobody tells me and im left to wonder. and believe me i have quite an imagination. i guess its my fault for wanting something that belonged to someone else.