its the worst when the whole world is telling you that everything is okay but something still doesnt feel right. and no matter how much you want to believe in all those good things you cant get rid of that feeling that theres no more good news coming. well ive got that feeling now. and then on top of that its like i cant do anything to change it. im out of ideas. its like i have no control over my life happiness right now. guhhh. makes me wonder if it would be easier to just give up now. but i cant bring myself to just give up. so i hold out and holding out never leads to anything good either what a fucked up girl